outstanding!!

All Hail the QUEEN!

I was at Orchard towers last night, at this place called 3 monkeys watching a show... by a drag queen. Kumar if you know. She was AWESOME, as usual. But just as I was really getting into the mood of things, someone in the audience started becoming really responsive. Miss Drag Queen started posing questions to her, asking her if she could tell the difference between transsexuals and straight prossies, and she was really really in her own world! Blabbering gibberish, going totally outta point. AND AND AND, to top it all off, A dude who was having his bachelor's night was up on stage, and boy was he constipated. verbally constipated! ERR... YES.... No.. that summed up what he has to say. For fug's sake!!

Live your life and experience life. Stop cowering in some odd dingy corner thinking that you're comfortable! Other things that are important to you my ass! Well, communicate at least. How hard can it be... bloody hell...

I am tired

I have realized that there is a limit to how much one can force oneself. I am tired, of making, or rather forcing everything to work. I need a break, but yet, deadlines are rendering me dead. Just today, i realized that i have changed. From the optimistic carefree person, to one that knows that it's all just going to be a bitch, unless I work hard to take things against their natural course. Which for me, is usually perpendicular, if not, in the totally opposite direction from where i want it to be.

I wanna play golf! why is what so hard to comprehend that!! haha, i am usually thinking that, but otherwise, it's just school and that tad bit of work that I do that takes up the rest of my time! Tell me, how do i lead a life like that? Coupled with the crazy nights pissed drunk, I think I IS WALKING HARD!!!!!!!

Birthday wish

What i truly want for my birthday. Wishlist? perhaps, more like 2 things. Money and time. I have not enough money, nor do i have enough time to get anything done. I am on a tight schedule, and i am feeling the stress of having so much on my hands and on my mind. Gawd. Issit so hard to just be me? and be human?

I'd so rather be golfing. So rather be chillin over a pint or ten...

Watch me fly...

I got me a new watch, and it's actually pretty cool, 'cept that i reckon that the one who got me the watch got ripped off, cos the watch is pretty obviously used, and slightly scratched. Oh well, i reckon it's bad luck... Gonna get it cleaned, and to my size, and it's the thought that counts innit? It's these little things that keep me from going stark raving mad in this hellhole.

And then again, perhaps it's just this hellhole. I think it's the latter!!

Phwoa

Arrrgh... I always feel like i am battling the stupidity of the world.... My mom says it's me.

Drowning

What happens when I am simply too strapped for time and I am absolutely trying my best, but somehow, putting everything in first place just isnt working any more? Dont give me the crap about time management and or that i have to choose. If you do, then ask yourself if you ever demanded something from someone. You have, and you have no right to tell me that I have any better choice. Not that it matters.

Hindsight

It is absolutely shocking when horrendous experiences become... OKAY.. Ask yourself. Goodness.. is that all we are? Our memories? Or is it an insanely complex matrix of conditioning and screwing around with our brain that everyone has a part of that makes us who we are?

Stand by me?

I was asked this sometime ago. who would you stand by? me or (insert name) if it all came to a ruck? I spent a whole great deal of time thinking about it, then i realized. What? after searching my emotions of how i would feel and so on, I realized that i stand by logic, and I stand for what i think is right, and i cannot predict how i will react... duhh... how am i supposed to say that? It is rather pointless to explain yourself anyway isnt it? when all others see is their perception of you and what they want to see.

Fire-making