The moment when

The moment when you realize that you just made a massive mistake, and you are about to kick yourself.

Like how I lead my life, perspective is everything. However, in the pursuit of perspective, sometimes I lose my way. What happens when you find your way? Is everything gone and beyond grasp?

I'm buzzing along.

After all that has happened, I suppose that this is the calm after the storm, when the little birds come out to play. It has been rough, and times have been bad. However, I suppose I came out of this not stronger, but more apprehensive of most things.

I have learnt many things during my short existence in this world(debatable), and though some are good, and others bad, this reinforces my belief of "nurture over nature". I think I was by nature, a very different person from who I am today, and that my experiences shaped me. Left to my own devices, I am sure I would have killed myself, or worse, gotten expelled from Hogwarts! Haha, I just had to do that.

I suppose that this is going to be a really light hearted post, and that I am resigned, and honestly, just sitting back, and watching time pass. Waiting for the time when I get worked up enough. Enough to jerk a response from me. Till then, let me ponder about the Deboichet fin I wanna get. Or is VMG a better choice?

Everything has changed

Well, it has been a time of change for me, so much so that I am now back to this, where I put my thoughts and feelings into words. Strange how change makes me use my brain a lot more than consistency.

I was listening to a song, and I shall embed that at the end of this rant. Strangely, I could relate to that so much so that it occurred to me that something else came to mind - A good friend once said, "different paths, same outcome" How true.

Back to the question of interpersonal relationships. How can two people sign a contract saying that they are for each other when I am sure that there are so many factors that will tear them apart? Mutual tolerance? Then again, why would you want to tolerate a person? Why would someone want to be attached/married in the first place? I think I am lost. Lost in my own beliefs and philosophies. They aren't getting me anywhere, and I am over-thinking. Worst part is that my thoughts go round in circles. Never giving me the satisfaction of a conclusion.

A strange dream

Because I am totally sick of waiting for wind ( And I am sure the dudes at the beach will tell me that it was honking) I decided to have a full rest day. I got up, drank water, cleared up after my cat, and went back to bed!

Well, so it happened like that;
I decided on a small reception at the registrar of marriage, everyone was there waiting, refreshments looked tasty and inviting, and I couldn't get at them because you're only supposed to eat after whatever is supposed to happen. It was storming, and I realized that my new convertible was leaking buckets, I was all wet and had to get a new shirt. My significant other was late, cos she forgot that all this was happening today, went out to pick her in my leaky car, got a new shirt, strangely I remember a lot about that - a light blue/dark brown, kinda interwoven tablecloth like material. Finally picked up the girl, car runs out of fuel, petrol station dude has a psychotic episode and breaks my window with a hammer, heated argument. THEN, my cat jumps on me. literally(not in the dream) and that's where it ends.

SOMEONE translate my dream to me.

Hello!

I know it's been a while, and well, since I saw my last post on my Severne Overdrive 11m, I decided to give an update on that! I was on a concrete ramp 2 weeks ago, and was preparing for an *awesome* day, when this freak wave - okay, more like a large ripple, came along and smacked my sail into a little curb! That in itself wasnt all that bad, it was more of popping a batten. BUT, lo and behold, when I picked up the sail, 2 panels were totally shredded! Cost me $110 to get them re-paneled, and I havent actually gotten the time to go pick it up from the dude yet...

On a better note, since that sail is being worked on, and for some strange reason, I keep ripping it,(I choose to think that it's the sail and not me) I bought a Neilpryde RS-3 for next to nothing, really good condition, practically unused - shan't say new cos it's ancient, and really really powerful! HOWEVER, because my boom is too short, and I cant actually outhaul enough, and thus, maybe that's the real reason as to why I think the sail is too powerful.

I had, about 2 weeks ago, an interesting experience with this 11m RS-3 and my iSonic 150. I really cant describe the feeling, but with my Overdrive, I never feel too fast. I am planing, planing fast, then overpowered. But on the Pryde, I am planing, faster, even faster, and even faster... Till I jibe cos I am scared I am going over the speed limit! (going supersonic!) Perhaps it's the way I rig my sail, but the Pryde feels so much faster it's really interesting!

Whatever it is, I am STILL working on my Jibes, and just perhaps, maybe I can be a tad faster round a course really soon!

Severne Overdrive

Oh well, I snapped 2 battens on my 11m sail recently. I realize that the larger the sail gets, the more fragile it is! Not only that, it is really prone to getting lifted by the wind, and smacking down on some screw sticking out at the most unlikely place, tearing itself up!

Oh, that just happened last week.

Now. What am I to do? New sail or just chill and let the dude at the club fix it? Not that he is not going to. He's doing it as I am typing this, but should I splurge on a 2011 Neilpryde Evo III? Who has tried the 10.7?

A simple update!

Well, after all this time, I suppose it's high time I updated this with what I have been up to!

Work has been tiring. It seems that everyone wants to breathe down my neck! Anyhow, that's why this post, and as you can see -

at just past 5, I have decided to get outta the office for a Friday night! Contrary to what you think, My head's throbbing, and I wanna go home in a while, after a few beers of course, and sleep!

On a lighter note, i bought...

It's a Starboard Carve 145, and I got it at a real steal! I paid like $250 for it, and that in Singaporean Dollars! Worst part however is that I havent gotten a chance to get it wet yet! I have been looking at it, and wondering how it'll perform on a plane... and a lot else, and I just havent had time go go to the beach YET!

That's gonna change I hope... Tomorrow!

That aside, I have been scooting along at work, it's been a pain, but I suppose that's life. I spoke with a good old friend, and we were discussing what was the most interesting thing that happens. We didn't (haven't) come to a conclusion, and that is rather depressing! I think that it's just gonna stay this way.

I suppose since young, not much has been really gaining my interest, and for the things that do, I really do delve into them, like golf for that, for the longest time, before I switched my focus on windsurfing. Other things that I was MADE to do, like work, has just simply been a matter of a fact, no bloody choice about it thing!

Alright... Time to concentrate. I am only on my second beer. Happy hour's about to be up, and I need to make up for lost time!

Woohoo!

How we are made to lie!!!

The future

I might actually be able to play the piano like this!