I wish me all the best!

Here's to me finding something intellectually stimulating sometime soon! Fingers crossed!

My back!

I hurt my back from windsurfing overpowered, and it is really killing me! Now the dilemma, do I see a specialist now, or do I follow what the medical websites say and hang on for a bit? It is getting better, but oh so so slowly!

Effort

I think that everyone tries in their own different way. Whether or not they tell you about it. However there are some people who simply do not care, are all talk and no actions. If someone is looking for me, they jolly well know where to find me. Otherwise, it really shouldn't matter to me what they think or want to do. I have placed so much hope in humanity, in the character of people, only to be let down. But that said, this is the only time that something like this has happened Just because of one rotten apple, I should not give up hope on the whole plantation.

Graduate

I finally collected my certificate from my Alma Mater, after putting it off for so long, considering that I didn't even turn up for my convocation. It is an odd feeling, closing this chapter of my life, and proceeding on to the next. All I have to say is (a re-iteration of what a close friend said to me) - "I have wasted a lot of time on things that don't matter, and even more time on people who are not worth me." This is pretty darned good!

Numbers

I have aged. Just yesterday, I met this old professor from my Alma Mater. We spoke for quite a while and in his own words, - Kenneth, you are wise beyond your years. A mentality like that is reserved for people well advanced in years. This could be your greatest gift, or your biggest flaw. I wonder what that means. Is it just that he isn't all that bright? Or is it that I just over think and over analyse everything that matters to me?

Good wind!

I think I have to drill into my mind that some people are worth it, and some people aren't. Just by the way that they treat you. Why was I so blind? I chose to believe, even when I was obviously led around by the nose and used for so long. I give people far too many chances.

Aint nothing gonna break my stride

No more wasting effort where it is not useful. This has been good, and I have been lucky. To be so much better than before. People told me that I was doing well, and I never stopped to see all that I have done. I did, and now I am really raring to go, to becoming so much more. I always thought that I could not do this. I can, and bloody hell, am I enjoying myself along the way!

I am vengeful, stubborn, territorial, and very driven.

Well, it has been a busy busy couple of days, and I have to say that I am rather enjoying this. I think I have forgotten who I was, because I was giving too much of myself. Talking about that, I think that giving was the one release that I had. One which made me realize that you really have to pick the right people to be your friends, and even, to be close to you. I have always given people too many chances. Listening to them when what I should have been doing was to be doing the talking. I, being me, delve into emotions. I allow things and events to fully settle in. This has allowed me to see that there are many people just playing and using others for their own amusement, and that, I have been a victim of. There are a few kinds of people in this world, and I have to mention that I have been fortunate enough to be in contact with a few of my closest friends. They helped me become a better person. It may not be immediately evident if one cannot see past the initial façade of people. Past the drinks, everyone has a story to tell. I have listened to a few, and the advice that came along with that. Thank you, my precious friends, who helped me. Not only emotionally, but in many aspects of my life. I doubt I would have been able to be as awesome as I am now without help. Though I am traumatized, I have learnt so much from all this that it really doesn't matter how I learnt this, but simply that I did. Some people take the time to know others, many just assume. To many, the title of this post is a negative statement. But to those who really know me, that was a declaration of how highly I think of myself. And if you think you know me, you really don't. Understanding someone is not something superficial. It is not selfish or assuming. This comes with a lot of thought, a lot of experience and a lot of pain and happiness. Stuff like this is what they who are lacking pretend to have. And boy do they do a good job. Isn't it strange how when left to my own devices, I accomplish so much more, and feel so much more alive?

Huhh?

Sometimes everything just doesn't make sense any more, and I give up trying to understand.

How thought must not be.

I am firm, You are obstinate, He is a pig-headed fool.

Stating the obvious

When people don't listen, they don't understand. When they dont understand, then they keep assuming things that are not true about you. Then they judge you on what is their impression of you, and come to a conclusion that you are not good. Why judge me without really knowing my reasons. Simply because the other party cannot be bothered to.