Wish-dom

In all my intelligence, I was talking to an acquaintance on the phone just a while ago, and I was rather interested in the interpretation of the resurrection of Jesus. It is claimed in some versions of the story - the collected works, or the Bible, that he descended into hell, and on (a few days later - conflicting number) rose again. So I asked :"He went to hell?"

To that I was told that he wasnt actually in hell, but rather, just among the dead. Or as I clarified, those who did not have eternal life. Or so I am presuming that my acquaintance, who has spent a considerable amount of time reading the compilation of stories, knows better than me. Who's to say where he went, but anyhow, assuming that he is right, then I think that will disprove the whole theory of hell.

If this is true, then perhaps there is an afterlife - (heaven)
OR
there is no afterlife - (hell)... Right?

What is the context in which the collected books were written? How did the authors want it to be interpreted?

Vacuum

A workmate is currently being annoying and is vacuuming the area, causing a din and worsening my already throbbing head. For once, maybe not once, but this doesnt happen all that often, my throbbing head is not caused by quantitative drinking. It's just me, doing what I do best, screwing myself over.

I really need time. I am exhausted. Worn so thin, and just dying to.... Fug... I dont even know what I want.

Awww snap...

Well, I got up all bright and early for work today, but still got in a grand total of 2 mins late, cos I was mucking around at home facebook-ing and all shiat... I was just about to start bitching about the fact that some companies actually have a lateness deduction of salary, when every minute late is accounted for, deducting a few dollars every month. I think that there may be a need to do that for the people who actually get paid by the hour, but definitely not for the people who dont get paid overtime!

When this is done for the people who are not getting paid for the amount that they are working, is there any sense in staying late after work? I dont get it. Motivation should be the name of the game. Rapport, and the sense of responsibility should be inculcated. The need for silly procedures of deducting that few dollars from your paycheck should be re-thought. Massively. Especially when even if people are 5 mins late in the morning, I can see that they stay well past 2 hours after the official knock-of time! Oh well, not in my jurisdiction to air my two cents worth.

On another note, I am thinking that there are really some aspects of my lifestyle that has to change. But then again, I am really wondering what to do. Not much seems to want to budge, and not much seems like a good idea. I am really wondering. What happens when the moolah says no? how much is it a good idea to think long term economics, and how much good is it to think... well, everything else? I am rather lost here. perhaps it's good to have a spreadsheet, and re-calculate what i should or should not be doing.

Ta-daa... Re-confusion.

Bike!

You know what they say, once a rider, always a rider? It's true. I mean, i havent had a bike for quite a while now, and honestly, it is pissing me off! The feeling of freedom. The feeling of being able to go anywhere you want. The wind in your face (not hair cos i am an advocate of helmets). That just isnt anywhere close to a car. A car is a responsibility. I worry about parking charges, road toll charges, get oh-so-bored of the drive, the centripetal forces when turning makes me feel like puking every time, the thought of having the breeze full on during sunset and not being able to get it, the whole feel of the car... I am truthful, I am not driving no Lambo, but the performance.

The only time i am happy in a car? When i turn on the windscreen wipers or A/C on a really hot day

I want a bike. A cheap one. Just for the heck of it. For fun.

Sigh....

There comes a point in every man's life when he starts to ponder about what is really important to him. Perhaps by that I mean that there are many times when we think about what we want, and then re-align our thoughts. I have been thinking what a full time job does to me. It's effects on me are really deep and the repercussions are horrendous. When we stay in the office and pursue the interests of the company, we are sacrificing time for oneself, for our personal development.

Think of it this way. Industrialization has made it such that we are spending less and less time on ourselves, and if my theory stands, the emphasis of life is personal development, spiritual or otherwise. Work and the obtaining of money is detrimental because it takes up time, time which can be better spent in personal development, pursuing other things! Maybe it's just me, gotta take it a lot slower. Whatcha think?

Time to.

Well, reminiscing about times past and wondering what the future holds is really one nasty place to be! Oh well, there are times when workload goes up, and then there is a very obvious slowdown in my personal productivity. Funny really, I always thought that I was a tad more consistent than one who has to have a mad rush for stuff because of the looming deadline.

Oh, and for an update, I just joined sgBEAT, and i think they are still experiencing teething problems. I mean, they are spamming me with disconnected messages, but nothing really useful, so... err... lets just give it some time! Other than that, I thought star trek was awesome... Definitely better than angels and demons! Inspired me to go get the whole season of voyager - MY FAVE! and re-watch again! Wonder if i should re-enterprise though. Haha, enough of the geek-talk, and back to my work! I want a break, money, and f***-loads of it! Pity I havent found a way those two can co-exist in harmony! Perpetual self-indulgence, and moo-lah!

Twitter

Well, if you have noticed, there is a twitter sidebar on this blog now, and I have to say that instead of blogging, this micro blogging is really making it so much easier cos I really mostly only have a sentence or two to say! Well, this really helps, so that what i blog about is what i think about, and not what i am doing.

To twittering... and sticking to it!

Well the past week has been really eventful, and it has become such that most of us at home were and will be pushed interestingly far. Not that it really matters, I have been in a self built cotton candy land for quite a bit, and a jolt is probably good to keep me on track. And of course, hopefully, en route to what I want to be.

Cotton candy land has been good, but coupled with the economy in it's current limp state, I am now facing a big issue on personal finances. It cannot continue like this, and I cannot afford it to. You know what they say, you only can afford the crap that you want when it's over. Just look at the nearest old dude in his Porsche / Lamborghini.

To the recent asshole who stepped on my toes;
Dammit, I hate assholes. I hate it when people have to put in effort to make things tough and me irritated. Just cos you are advanced in age does not mean that you are superior in any way. Perhaps only in a race to the coffin. As a matter of a fact, I pride myself in taking out people like you, and if you do think that you can push me around, I am really sorry to disappoint. Time to go say your Hail Marys. My wrath is just about to descend on you.

Doh!

"I have seen several entirely sincere people who thought they were (permanent) Seekers after Truth. They sought diligently, persistently, carefully, cautiously, profoundly, with perfect honesty and nicely adjusted judgment--until they believed that without doubt or question they had found the Truth. That was the end of the search. The man spent the rest of his life hunting up shingles wherewith to protect his Truth from the weather. If he was seeking after political Truth he found it in one or another of the hundred political gospels which govern men in the earth; if he was seeking after the Only True Religion he found it in one or another of the three thousand that are on the market. In any case, when he found the Truth he sought no further; but from that day forth, with his soldering-iron in one hand and his bludgeon in the other he tinkered its leaks and reasoned with objectors."
--Mark Twain

And so it is done

There are many distinct phases of our lives, and mine has just taken a turn. For the better or worse, I cannot tell just yet, but whatever it is, it is a turn. I have been meditating, wondering about the non-perpetuity of life and all that comes with it... human memory and consciousness for instance. Well, the past few days have been really rough, and I can understand that all those around me have been feeling the strain. I understand that there are many preconceptions that we all hold of people that may or may not be true. It is very pronounced when these preconceptions lead us to decide things about the people around us.

Usually these may not matter, but when it comes to crunch time, and when everyone is feeling the strain, it is only natural that decisions will make a very big impact on the other party's emotions. If I was trying my very best at something, it really gets to me when someone thinks that I am slacking just because I sometimes do. Couple that with non-essential crap, and totally irrelevant responsibilities, and it will make this. A really pissed off me!