You know you're not the first

BUT YOU KNOW YOU WILL BE THE LAST SHE EVER WANTS!

independence

right. Independence. I want to be so badly, and yet people want me to be dependent on them? Goodness. I really cannot see why. Why bother? What abouts all you out there? My dream? Independence and continual hyper-productivity, but not in the mundane. You? Whats u made of?

Comfort Zones

I was watching the love guru... and for those who have yet to see it, Go. There was this line. When love is not in order, life is not in order... Something like that, but i got the gist. Comfort zones? only in relationships. Are they not supposed to be the things we run to for solace, rather the thing that needs constant time and effort to maintain? I have no clue, and if you ask me, who on earth would have time to entertain such thoughts?

Whatever the case, KL was alright, blew 2 big ones there, expensive as hell!

My KL trip.. Next.

goodness, after all that planning, is this all the thanks that i am going to get? I still need to go get a gift. Perplexing... I never got how to buy a gift. Importance and necessity? Give a sum of money, but then again, that would mean the percentage of your total money would equate to the amount of affection. This just sucks. I am so confused.

Whoo Hoo!

Whatever Significance that makes, it's today that my counter on this blog reached a quarter a million. That means that there are a quarter million readers... err clicks at least right? But then again... i am really perplexed.. how come there isnt anyone who comments on my blog? or issit just that everyone is as frustrated as me, and just another soul in the world feeling that he is hindered and shit is NOTHING new? I WONDER.

Goodness gracious

I am tired of making a change. is conformity a necessity? or is it me being lazy? I feel like this so often, and honestly, even though this happens, i still always manage to think to myself... screw this shit.. and get on with my life. Or is it this shithole? I am irritated, and honestly, I hate this place. truthfully. Singapore.

my new phone

I love this getting stuff done on my phone, even putting up posts of silly things..

And the shit re-hits the fan!

As the title says, I am in neck deep. It is insane, but all worth it. Trusting your partner? I do. Do you? And all you people out there. do you trust your partners? Maybe i am really not cut out for this relationship buisness. As a friend once said. Love eludes and confuses me. I dont get this at all. Trust. That is the key factor right? Trusting in the person and the persons love. Is that hard? Or should we just not even try?

Trouble.

It was all good, all fantastic, birthday was good! Dinner was mind bogglingly fantastic, but then came drinks at the club. Too much whiskey later, I was pissed drunk, and a friend had to send me home cos i was feeling really pukey, and i puked! once i got outta the cab... and i havent drank that much in ages! I didnt notice that my phone wasnt with me, left it with a friend. It was just a harmless night out with my friends. How issit that it's so hard to understand?

Happy Birthday

And with that, the cake. The thought was nice, but the cake wasnt!

Anyhow, zouk tonight, Some tiny club in singapore, that is one of the 2 high profile clubs, dingy if you ask me...

The path of least resistance.

Tell me. How often are we giving away the rights in our life, just for the simple fact that we are too bloody lazy to do what our heart/minds tell us, and take the path of least resistance? I keep telling myself. I am not heat, nor am i an electron flow.

NSRCC

I have a dream, and that dream is being clouded. Again. Just like golf, keep your eyes on the ball. Don't get so preoccupied with what is going to or may happen, you lose sight of what you are doing now. Please. Isnt it time you grow up and smell the darn roses?

Tonight

Hmmm.. i am but a guy. Chilling out. Life's good. I am celebrating the greatest love of my life. ME.

Foldershare

Goodness... I just finished syncing my computers on foldershare, and gawd issit awesome! It's bloody brilliant! and that is an understatement. go check it. I INSIST.

www.foldershare.com

I am free

outstanding!!

All Hail the QUEEN!

I was at Orchard towers last night, at this place called 3 monkeys watching a show... by a drag queen. Kumar if you know. She was AWESOME, as usual. But just as I was really getting into the mood of things, someone in the audience started becoming really responsive. Miss Drag Queen started posing questions to her, asking her if she could tell the difference between transsexuals and straight prossies, and she was really really in her own world! Blabbering gibberish, going totally outta point. AND AND AND, to top it all off, A dude who was having his bachelor's night was up on stage, and boy was he constipated. verbally constipated! ERR... YES.... No.. that summed up what he has to say. For fug's sake!!

Live your life and experience life. Stop cowering in some odd dingy corner thinking that you're comfortable! Other things that are important to you my ass! Well, communicate at least. How hard can it be... bloody hell...

I am tired

I have realized that there is a limit to how much one can force oneself. I am tired, of making, or rather forcing everything to work. I need a break, but yet, deadlines are rendering me dead. Just today, i realized that i have changed. From the optimistic carefree person, to one that knows that it's all just going to be a bitch, unless I work hard to take things against their natural course. Which for me, is usually perpendicular, if not, in the totally opposite direction from where i want it to be.

I wanna play golf! why is what so hard to comprehend that!! haha, i am usually thinking that, but otherwise, it's just school and that tad bit of work that I do that takes up the rest of my time! Tell me, how do i lead a life like that? Coupled with the crazy nights pissed drunk, I think I IS WALKING HARD!!!!!!!

Birthday wish

What i truly want for my birthday. Wishlist? perhaps, more like 2 things. Money and time. I have not enough money, nor do i have enough time to get anything done. I am on a tight schedule, and i am feeling the stress of having so much on my hands and on my mind. Gawd. Issit so hard to just be me? and be human?

I'd so rather be golfing. So rather be chillin over a pint or ten...

Watch me fly...

I got me a new watch, and it's actually pretty cool, 'cept that i reckon that the one who got me the watch got ripped off, cos the watch is pretty obviously used, and slightly scratched. Oh well, i reckon it's bad luck... Gonna get it cleaned, and to my size, and it's the thought that counts innit? It's these little things that keep me from going stark raving mad in this hellhole.

And then again, perhaps it's just this hellhole. I think it's the latter!!

Phwoa

Arrrgh... I always feel like i am battling the stupidity of the world.... My mom says it's me.

Drowning

What happens when I am simply too strapped for time and I am absolutely trying my best, but somehow, putting everything in first place just isnt working any more? Dont give me the crap about time management and or that i have to choose. If you do, then ask yourself if you ever demanded something from someone. You have, and you have no right to tell me that I have any better choice. Not that it matters.