Rationalizing

Rationalizing all sorts of stuff that I have done and think about, I realize that it is really unnecessary, all over again. Well, I suppose that most people will never understand. Just because I don't bitch about things does not mean that I am not doing my absolute best. I cant do this any more. I am just gonna go get more beer. I feel like shit, and I am real pissed. I really wonder why I bother. I am learning not to let it affect me no more.

What happens when what you want and what you don't want are in direct conflict? It is so very common.