Phantom of the Opera.... - the Maiden song!!

Far away from the land of our birth.

topics that have been bothering me

On tiny scraps of paper that I found all over my desk, here goes!

I still stand by the fact that if I can get down on paper a bit of what I think about, I'll be a great man~

Hear the dragon roaring

If you are dying, right now, Who's going to come looking for you?

I was watching a show about a total psycho - Just because you are totally convinced about yourself, dont make it better to the person next to you.

Feelings - Infinite dreams

Infinite dreams I can't deny them
Infinity is hard to comprehend
I couldn't hear those screams
Even in my wildest dreams

Suffocation waking in a sweat
Scared to fall asleep again
Incase the dream begins again
Someone chasing and cannot move
Standing rigid a nightmare's statue
What a dream when will it end
And will I transcend?

Restless sleep the minds in turmoil
One nightmare ends another fertile
It's getting to me so scared to sleep
But scared to wake now, in too deep

Even though its reached new heights
I rather like the restless nights
It makes me wonder it makes me think
There's more to this I'm on the brink
It's not the fear of what's beyond
It's just that I might not respond
I have an interest almost craving
But would I like to get too far in?

It can't be all coincidence
Too many things are evident
You tell me you're an unbeliever
Spiritualist? Well me I'm neither
But wouldn't you like to know
The truth
Of what's out there to have the proof
And find out just which side
You're on
Where would you end in Heaven or
In Hell?

Help me. Help me to find my true
Self without seeing the future
Save me, save me from torturing
Myself even within my dreams

There's got to be just more to it
Than this
Or tell me why do we exist
I'd like to think that when I die
I'd get a chance another time
And to return and live again
Reincarnate, play the game
Again and again and again

Tech

Well, I was reading, or rather, browsing through Facebook, and i came across a line that I particularly liked. A friend commented that technology should work for us and not the other way round. i just realized that I actually do spend a lot of time going through the process of trying out many new programs. That feeds the need to integrate all the little things that I do and use.

And in full, I do think that in order for technology to work for us, the initial process of integration has to be very religiously adhered to. And true to my word, I am using flock to update my blog, Facebook and all the other what-not. I have to say that it is really rather impressive!

On a lighter note, a great pal is finally coming to Singapore to visit, with his girl, and that's the guy who kinda first made me want to customize everything. Fine. Software at least. Haven't seen him in ages, and it's always good to!

The universe & the big bang

Okay. I have just pondered a long and rather hard about black holes and the big bang, and what do you know? arent they about the same thing? Both are gravitational singularities that for now, we are not yet really in the know. Whatever it is, Imagine this.


There was a black hole. One really big one, and say, it was gulping down a lot of galaxies as we know just around us, Getting bigger and bigger. Say then, that this singularity was exponentially increasing in size. Or rather in gravity exerted on that around it. Slowly but surely, more and more is going to be pulled in. On that same note, as this happens, lets assume that the big bang theory is right, and that there is a critical mass for everything. Uranium and star dust inclusive. So well there. We have, our very own big bang.

My theory however, is that the universe is NOT so small! I believe that, though we are sitting rather near the middle of the epicenter of an atomic blast (big bang), the world (universe) isnt only the size of ground zero. I think, for now, it's just what we are seeing, when everything is moving away and still expanding. That, i think is the big bang's doing. I am not arguing for or against the big bang, I just dont think it is all that big! I think that there might be a lot more than that!

Free Stuff!!!

Well, true to the scrooge in me, there is a site my friend told me about... And you actually get free stuff from them! It's just samples, but what's wrong with having some new stuff to try once in a while?

Here it is...

Wish-dom

In all my intelligence, I was talking to an acquaintance on the phone just a while ago, and I was rather interested in the interpretation of the resurrection of Jesus. It is claimed in some versions of the story - the collected works, or the Bible, that he descended into hell, and on (a few days later - conflicting number) rose again. So I asked :"He went to hell?"

To that I was told that he wasnt actually in hell, but rather, just among the dead. Or as I clarified, those who did not have eternal life. Or so I am presuming that my acquaintance, who has spent a considerable amount of time reading the compilation of stories, knows better than me. Who's to say where he went, but anyhow, assuming that he is right, then I think that will disprove the whole theory of hell.

If this is true, then perhaps there is an afterlife - (heaven)
OR
there is no afterlife - (hell)... Right?

What is the context in which the collected books were written? How did the authors want it to be interpreted?

Vacuum

A workmate is currently being annoying and is vacuuming the area, causing a din and worsening my already throbbing head. For once, maybe not once, but this doesnt happen all that often, my throbbing head is not caused by quantitative drinking. It's just me, doing what I do best, screwing myself over.

I really need time. I am exhausted. Worn so thin, and just dying to.... Fug... I dont even know what I want.

Awww snap...

Well, I got up all bright and early for work today, but still got in a grand total of 2 mins late, cos I was mucking around at home facebook-ing and all shiat... I was just about to start bitching about the fact that some companies actually have a lateness deduction of salary, when every minute late is accounted for, deducting a few dollars every month. I think that there may be a need to do that for the people who actually get paid by the hour, but definitely not for the people who dont get paid overtime!

When this is done for the people who are not getting paid for the amount that they are working, is there any sense in staying late after work? I dont get it. Motivation should be the name of the game. Rapport, and the sense of responsibility should be inculcated. The need for silly procedures of deducting that few dollars from your paycheck should be re-thought. Massively. Especially when even if people are 5 mins late in the morning, I can see that they stay well past 2 hours after the official knock-of time! Oh well, not in my jurisdiction to air my two cents worth.

On another note, I am thinking that there are really some aspects of my lifestyle that has to change. But then again, I am really wondering what to do. Not much seems to want to budge, and not much seems like a good idea. I am really wondering. What happens when the moolah says no? how much is it a good idea to think long term economics, and how much good is it to think... well, everything else? I am rather lost here. perhaps it's good to have a spreadsheet, and re-calculate what i should or should not be doing.

Ta-daa... Re-confusion.